I’m always messing up and not being consistent. Sometimes I wonder is this all worth it? As you all know, my writing sucks but I still do it because I understand it’s a powerful platform of getting your thoughts and ideas out. I have this blog so I can share some of my ideas, thoughts, and observations with the rest of the world. I also blog because there’s a chance that a special person may read this one day somewhere in the world and change my life completely. I write this because maybe some people can relate to the words I have to say. I write because it’s uncomfortable. I hate writing and its one of my biggest weaknesses. When I was in elementary school, I had to stay afterschool and get my writing worked on. I was in ESL classes my entire school life yet I never gave up and pushed myself. I ended up taking AP language and somehow got a 4 on that exam which exempted me from taking any writing classes in college thank god. Since this is the observation series, here are some of my observations I made throughout the week.
Big picture, you’ll be fine. Its finals week for me in college and I’ve been super stressed out for weeks because I’m the type of person who studies for a test and then forgets everything afterwards. Finals screws me over because I need to recall everything I learned in the past. The days leading up to my finals I decided not to kill myself over it. I know I studied as much as I could (that’s a lie, a little less than as much as I could) and if it doesn’t work out, a bad grade is not going to ruin my life. Yeah there are some of you who think an A- is going to be the end of the world and it eliminates your chances of getting in to Harvard grad school. Fuck Harvard grad school; in fact fuck every school or institution that doesn’t think your good enough. “If you know what your worth, go out and get what your worth” –Rocky quote.
Life’s short and its not meant to be lived with regrets and fear. Do what you gotta do interms of school and hustle and everything will work its way out. Whatever outcome happens, be stoic about it. The only piece of literature I ever resonated to was meditations by Marcus Aurelius and his stoic philosophy. Whatever happens, happens for your best. Please subscribe to my newsletter, like, and comment.